What should i do!!?? Luv help please....?

Ok, well very long story! Theres this guy. Ive known him since kindergarten, he was my first kiss(middle school), my first boyfriend (kindergarten), and most important my first luv! We we went out (bf gf) and then we broke up because there was a huge rumor going around that he was cheating on me which he wasnt (he wouldnt do that expecailly 2 me) like a month or 2 later he asked me out again i thought about it 4 almost over a week cuz u know...(p.s my bestest friend that i will menchine later in the story HATES HIM!! because she thinks he cheated on me) but any way i ended up saying yes then we broke up for who remembers what. Then like another month later he asked me out again and i said no because i didnt want to ruin our friendship anymore cuz when we broke up we werent as tight as we where b4 even no i LUV HIM. Then my friend that i was talking about that HATED HIM frogave him and i was so happy 4 a while. untill she told me that she liked him!! :( he told me that she thinks shes UGLY and uvcorse i didnt tell her that even no i wanted too to make her back of. But then she asked him out(LOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW made me cry 2) he said yes cuz he didnt want to hurt her feeling and wouldnt u think my best friend would tell me 1 NO she didnt my best guy friend did. Cuz he tell me absoulty everything and i tell him apsoultly everything..expect how much i luv him. But he broke up with her cuz i told him its kinda low to go out with someone if u dont like them. To this day she still likes him. and i still luv him since kindergarten. I always have dreams about him and thats all i think i think about. I think hes my tru luv. p.s. he still like me too and he has luved me since kindergarten too! Wht should i do?? what would u do if u where in my situation?? does tht make any since????